January 21, 2010

Empty


Empty,
Emotionless,
A shell, void of anything worth feeling,
As soon as I find joy or happiness it drains from me like an emptying sink,
I can't get a grip on my feelings,
They keep slipping away from me,
Leaving feeling like a zombie,
Wishing I could turn back the hands of time,
Change the past so that I could be what I use to be,
Happy,
Joyful,
Interesting,
Fulfilling,
Exciting,
I want to be lighter,
I'm so heavy now,
My spirit seems broken,
I can figure it out,
I pray,
I cry,
I scream,
I think,
I write,
Nothing has changed,
I don't know how to say this out loud,
Without pain,
Without tears,
Without frustration,
I feel neglected,
I feel unheard,
I feel invisible,
I feel alone,
I don't know why I try,
I know I won't give up, not yet,
But I don't know how much more I can take,
Before I finally break,
I'm tired,
So tired,
and empty...

By: Lyanna Hampton

This poem sums up how the past year and now has left me feeling. I try and try everyday to overcome the negative thoughts that I feel but I don't know.

2 comments:

  1. Seems like this blog has become a got outlet for you're frustration and you creative energy! That just goes to show you that good things can come from trails and troubles. :) Hang in there!

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