Lately I've been thinking a lot about my job and the experiences I've had and I'm thinking about writing a book about it. There are a lot of people that have had experiences in retail and customer service that are truly memorable or things that employees want to say but can't. I think it can be a good read and hopefully I get people to help out which shouldn't be a problem.
September 6, 2011
Busy. That's the word that describes my life at the moment. I feel like my summer was overrun and filled with stuff I didn't want to do. Work has begun to swallow my life because I can't say "No" without feeling guilty. There's a whopping staff of 3 and the past week and a half my assistant manager has been out on a bruised toe injury that she did at work (which could have been prevented VERY easily). So I had to pick up her hours while we borrowed a few girls from another store plus work in my new position as the MSR (Maternity Sales Representative) at our leased location in Macy's. My husband had last week off and I barely saw him! Then this week my boss went on vacation which in my opinion wasn't the best move with an injured employee and one part-timer. So our store is left to the borrowed help who only give 50% because it's not their store. I'll be glad when things go back to normal and I'm not so stressful.
I'm also making a big step and becoming a Big Sister for the organization Big Brothers Big Sisters. I feel that will help with this calling to help children. It's something that has always been in my heart to do. Since I was 12 I knew I wanted to adopt a child when I was older and I even thought about going into social work but decided to go a more creative route. I just know that I can made a difference in a child's life and this is a great stepping stone for me. I had my interview last Thursday and was told in a couple weeks I will be able to choose my Little. I'm really excited about that and I look forward to this new experience.
I also decided to enroll in Layman's Bible School at my church. That starts next Monday and it's the next step in growing my relationship with God. Many people that I've told about it are asking me if I wan to become a minster and honestly I have no idea! Haha! Maybe this means that I may one day be a youth minster. I can only start the journey and let my path unfold before me only God knows what may come next and I'm just along for the ride.
August 18, 2011
So I have been doing a lot of prayer and spending time with God. I'm really trying to see what I should be doing with my life. It has been on my heart to work with children so I've decided to be a Big Sister and be a voluenteer and get my foot in the door to do what's in my heart to do. I'm looking forward to it. I'm trying to take the right steps and hopefully they will lead to bigger changes in my life that I hope will be for the better.
August 9, 2011
July 28, 2011
Don't let that dream go,
Don't let misery and despair overflow,
You have to let it show,
That you're more than they will ever know,
Let your dreams grow,
Because one day you will reap what you've sown,
All that you've done,
Your dreams will be known
L. Moore 2011
It was somewhat a motivational thing for me because I know that I am destined to do more than what I'm doing right now. I have dreams that can and will be reality for me one day. I just had to be diligent and work hard to get there.
|My sister and I|
I may not be a mother but I am your mother,
You may not have come from my womb but from as far back as I can remember I helped take care of you,
The diapers, feedings, keeping you safe,
I feel as if you’re mine,
I’m protective because I know,
I’ve been there,
I understand how you feel even if you don’t,
I know where the roads go,
So as a momma bear with her cubs I try to steer,
Help you make the right choices and bypass my mistakes,
I’m here for you,
Never be in fear that you are alone,
That no one loves you or cares,
Because I will always be there,
To hear your pain, love, joy, hate,
I will be there when you fall to help you back up,
I love you baby bear,
June 28, 2011
June 27, 2011
Going to work was the last hing I wanted to do but I did it but it was tough but I made it through. While working a thought occurred to me...I've let my spirit get weak and the Devil got in and stole my joy. I'm not enjoying my life or the people in it as I should. When I'm not working I'm not doing anything which sucks when I think about it. I need to work on my relationship with God and do things that make me happy so that I can enjoy life which can end at anytime. I just don't know where to start...who should I talk to? What should I do? How can I stick to it?
These are some things I have to meditate on and work out.
I just hope there will be more to my life than this. Working, sleeping, working and doing it all unhappily. I just think I should be doing more.
April 27, 2011
Tears on the brink,
Waiting to trickle down the warm, round cheek,
Flooded with salty liquid,
Fighting rumbling sounds,
Trying to escape sealed lips,
That quiver and temble,
Muscles contract and release as waves of emotion beat tiny white leveys,
Lungs scream for air,
Then there's a sweet release,
that gives way to a shreik,
A release of pain,
And the tears fall,
Covering the warm flesh,
They keep coming,
Until there's none,
Deep breaths of peace.
March 27, 2011
|Us and our wedding party :)|
The semester is dragging along and I can't wait to be DONE! This semester is truly making me regret going back to school for another degree but everyone thinks it's makes me so much more marketable but we shall see. I have four classes and I'm only mildly enjoying one and that's advanced editing otherwise I'm not able to keep up with the rest. My brain and scheduling isn't mixing well right now and it's causing me unwanted or needed stress. My photo class is making me feel very inadequate to say the least and my Investigative journalism class (or computer assisted reporting) is a major pain in my @$$. I wish I could have nixed it but I couldn't if I wanted to graduate. I've spent the last two weekends doing nothing but homework which sucks because I already work on weekends. But I only have about 4 weeks left anyway so it's fine...I will deal and make it work.
On the up-side I got a second job for the summer at motherhood which is a maternity clothing store. I really clicked with the store manager during the interview and very excited about working there. Also we're MOVING! We found a great, spacious two bedroom apartment that's right behind the mall I work in! So we are super excited! We got April month rent for free so we can start moving once the lease is signed next week! Yay!
So there's an update of my life as of now and I hope to be blogging more regularly after school is done...until next time!
January 12, 2011
Oh yeah this is my LAST semester! EVER! I have my internship at Revue magazine which has been going well, full-time classes and still working at Vanity...and lets not forget I'm getting married! So my plate is pretty full right now. But honestly I'm ready for this wedding to be over so that I can focus on my business and school and help out more financially here at home. Yeah my fiance doesn't mind but I do so there needs to be a change. I never want too plan a wedding on my own again! I see plenty of brides that turn to wedding planning after their wedding but not me! UGH! I'm counting down to our 5 year anniversary so we can renew our vows on a beach in Jamaica! :P
Enough about weddings....blah! I'm almost done with my Journalism degree...YAY! I hope that this will increase my chances of obtaining a job when all is said in done. But really it's up to God what comes my way and what I listen to when He tells me what to do. I'm making 2011 a new year for me all over and I'm changing a lot: no more drinking (if I can help it!), eating more at home (and healthier!), trying to be more fit and not letting things stress me out or stop me from doing what I want. There are a lot of things I leave unsaid and I want to change that because right now I'm not feeling the satisfaction that I should be and that's not a good feeling. But I can't change the past only the future and that's exactly what I intend to do!
I wrote a poem about marriage and weddings...it's kinda long so I may put it in another post tomorrow. It's been a LONG day and I have another one tomorrow so I should be heading to bed. I just noticed I hadn't blogged in a while and I think it may be more important for me to do so this semester because I don't know when I will have time to go to counseling!
Until next time...