Ideas

Lately I've been thinking a lot about my job and the experiences I've had and I'm thinking about writing a book about it. There are a lot of people that have had experiences in retail and customer service that are truly memorable or things that employees want to say but can't. I think it can be a good read and hopefully I get people to help out which shouldn't be a problem.

Wake me up when September Ends

Busy. That's the word that describes my life at the moment. I feel like my summer was overrun and filled with stuff I didn't want to do. Work has begun to swallow my life because I can't say "No" without feeling guilty. There's a whopping staff of 3 and the past week and a half my assistant manager has been out on a bruised toe injury that she did at work (which could have been prevented VERY easily). So I had to pick up her hours while we borrowed a few girls from another store plus work in my new position as the MSR (Maternity Sales Representative) at our leased location in Macy's. My husband had last week off and I barely saw him! Then this week my boss went on vacation which in my opinion wasn't the best move with an injured employee and one part-timer. So our store is left to the borrowed help who only give 50% because it's not their store. I'll be glad when things go back to normal and I'm not so stressful.
I'm also making a big step and becoming a Big Sister for the organization Big Brothers Big Sisters. I feel that will help with this calling to help children. It's something that has always been in my heart to do. Since I was 12 I knew I wanted to adopt a child when I was older and I even thought about going into social work but decided to go a more creative route. I just know that I can made a difference in a child's life and this is a great stepping stone for me. I had my interview last Thursday and was told in a couple weeks I will be able to choose my Little. I'm really excited about that and I look forward to this new experience.
I also decided to enroll in Layman's Bible School at my church. That starts next Monday and it's the next step in growing my relationship with God. Many people that I've told about it are asking me if I wan to become a minster and honestly I have no idea! Haha! Maybe this means that I may one day be a youth minster. I can only start the journey and let my path unfold before me only God knows what may come next and I'm just along for the ride.

New Directions

So I have been doing a lot of prayer and spending time with God. I'm really trying to see what I should be doing with my life. It has been on my heart to work with children so I've decided to be a Big Sister and be a voluenteer and get my foot in the door to do what's in my heart to do. I'm looking forward to it. I'm trying to take the right steps and hopefully they will lead to bigger changes in my life that I hope will be for the better.

A poem I wrote at work

I wrote this while I was at my retail job at the mall. I had no customers for 3 hours and I had a realization about my summer...that I hadn't had a lot of chances to enjoy it with my husband or friends and it got me to thinking about my summers as a teenager where they were truly care-free. So this is what I came up with.

Summer Young

I remember a time,

when summers were for adventures,

imagination and best friends,

ice cream and fast food,

bike rides and barbeques.

When the beach and amusement parks were a must do,

and nothing was better than having fun and enjoying youth.

Now summer is just another season,

working and cleaning,

bills and money,

late nights and sleepy eyes.

Memories of summer young,

when fun was an necessity,

instead of out of reach.

Being older is overrated.

Doing something “just to get by”

sucking away creativity and life,

until the day you can break free and truly be happy.

Dreamer

I wrote this the other night after a stressful day at work.

Dreamer
Don't let that dream go,
Don't let misery and despair overflow,
You have to let it show,
That you're more than they will ever know,
Let your dreams grow,
Because one day you will reap what you've sown,
All that you've done,
Your dreams will be known

L. Moore 2011

It was somewhat a motivational thing for me because I know that I am destined to do more than what I'm doing right now. I have dreams that can and will be reality for me one day. I just had to be diligent and work hard to get there.

A Poem for My Sister

This poem is dedicated to my baby sister Lorean. She's going through a rough time yesterday and it was on my heart to write this for her.

My sister and I

Baby Bear

I may not be a mother but I am your mother,
You may not have come from my womb but from as far back as I can remember I helped take care of you,
The diapers, feedings, keeping you safe,
I feel as if you’re mine,
I’m protective because I know,
I’ve been there,
done it,
I understand how you feel even if you don’t,
I know where the roads go,
So as a momma bear with her cubs I try to steer,
Help you make the right choices and bypass my mistakes,
I’m here for you,
always,
Never be in fear that you are alone,
That no one loves you or cares,
Because I will always be there,
To hear your pain, love, joy, hate,
I will be there when you fall to help you back up,
I love you baby bear,
my sister.

Frustration...

Ok so I know my post have been real downers (for anyone who reads this stuff) but I'm not having a great day...AGAIN! I'm starting to think that there's is a plan for me and I need to figure that out. i know I'm not meant to work in retail for the rest of my life. Why would I not try to put my degrees to good use after all the debt I've occurred from them. But I have on problem that I'm sure many recent graduates are finding also...everyone wants someone with EXPERIENCE! How can I gain any experience if all the jobs available want experience. It's a never ending circle that just leaves me confused and frustrated. Sure my job gets my bills paid and food in my fridge (barely) but how in the world do they expect people to get anywhere when we are running in circles and forced to live paycheck to paycheck. It just frustrating. Then I have this part-time job that is riding me about numbers when I can only try so much before I hit a wall. It's making me very stressed out. All I want is to do what I love and be happy doing it but there's no opportunity for me to do that. I just wish I had the right answers and knew what to do...