It's been a while...

So it's been a a while since my last post. I haven't had much going on in the world of writing since classes ended. (I got all B's by the way) I also have gotten a bit discourage due to the lack of reading. Maybe if I was a DIY blog or something more interesting than an artistic outlet more people would read, but anyway, I digress. My life has been pretty plain Jane-work, work, work. I'm going to be studying abroad in less than 2 weeks in England for 5 weeks. That's a big thing for me but surprisingly the excitement has worn off. I guess after the struggle to get it all put together I lost my gusto. I feel the same way about our wedding. I want to get things done but can because I don't have everything I need or because of the almighty dollar (better yet the lack of) which is frustrating. I also cut my hair so that's a new adventure for me as well. I'm proud of myself for that and I've gotten a lot of compliments too which is nice. I've really been feeling a bit indifferent about my life the past few days and it may be linked to the past few weeks. Having financial issues, finding out who I can really call friends and depend on, my trip, my family...everything has been so much but not all at the same time. I'm just trying to stay faithful in God through all of this which is hard when there are so many things that go through my mind. If I had this, if I had that, etc. It's tiresome I tell ya! But I must admit I've been blessed because of my devotion and faith which only strengths it. I don't know how to feel right now and that's got Meech worried but I don't know what to say. I'm going through some mixed emotions and I don't know what to do. I'm not feeling motivated, excited, anything but tired, fat, and bored...and I don't know what to do about it...

Thanks to whomever reads this, if anybody.